Perfectionism

As an artist/designer, perfectionism is my greatest enemy. To overcome it I've decided to take take the same approach i used to get over my shyness. Back then just saying hello starting a random conversation was such anxiety cause i wanted to have a perfect conversation where the other person would think i was the most amazing person they ever met...too ridiculous. So i changed my goal to just trying to say hi and that's it. Just starting is already a success. Just going out just trying to get the experience is already a success. The only failure s if you don't try. If you don't try you don't even know what you did wrong in the attempt. Just getting mileage. Just trying to make a piece is already a success, doesn't have to be perfect. There's is no perfect piece. Goal is to just keep trying and getting better. Its like a dancer or musician trying to make a perfect performance, just take the first step.

Anyone have any other strategies they used?

first attempt at alias, using mostly map shading .

Growing up again

As I get closer to graduating I feel the pressures of becoming a professional artist. Its kind of strange, like some sort of loss of innocence, or second coming of age. No more of just drawing whatever the heck i want all the time, instead worrying about if my work is good enough for the boss, who usually ends up picking some miniscule thumbnail in the bottom left corner anyway.

The thought that if i don't draw I don't eat keeps running through my head. I need to find a part time freelance job or something. Anyone know anyone who needs some art/design work done? How do i find a place to do an internship at? Yikes! so much to do so little time.

post new year

time to register for school. i want to avoid it. no money no time. not looking forward to the pain and sleepless nights, malnutrition, but i do want to do some great art and design.

in the meantime , here are some sketchbook sketches from the last two months. looking at these i can see a lot about how i was the last few months, the struggle, the insanity, the intensity.

c u nxt time.

New year

still trying to learn how to use this but havent quite figured it out yet,,,,really want to post some pictures. feeling a little bit inspired to draw again i miss having an art community to comment and give support and criticisms of art. I miss doing charcoal portraits and figure drawing . Hopefully having this here will help me get started again. ill scan and post some stuff soon. Lots of old sketches to organize. i need to find an art job to make money too. Art was once my salvation but now it seems to elude me. I miss as well.